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I know I know, I haven't posted in FOREVER. I've been busy. My oldest went back to school, my youngest (who's only four months old) thinks he can CRAWL. My third thinks the only way to live life is to cry and scream and have you carry him all over the place. My second? She's pretty good. A little whiney, but I'd take it compared to the rest.

Also I have a TON of laundry to fold. I'm good with the washing part, its just the folding that gets me. We went camping this weekend, don't go camping with little kids. Seriously.

I feel sick.

I gotta go lay down for a little bit and then I'll be back with a REAL post. Promise.

SOOooooooo...

Okay, okay okayokokokokay OKAY, I am FINALLY getting around to blogging! Its been forever, have you all forgotten about me? I wouldn't blame you, I've been a horrible blog friend as of late. :(

Its hard to blog now, besides the fact that I'm using an incredibly ridiculously slow computer that freezes up all the time, and that things are different and crazy, I also have my mother in law here ALL THE TIME. So I feel like I'm being watched! Or I just feel stupid being on the computer, its dumb and weird and well, thats just how I feel. Also, its hard to blog because by the time I get done catching up reading all your blogs, I've been on the computer for an hour and am freaking exhausted. Stop doing that! Sheesh.

So anyway, I guess I should let you all know how things are going...right? Do you want to know? I'm feeling very insecure about this! Things are not really at all how I expected them to be, not that thats bad (its HORRIBLE! j/k!), its just different and I'm trying to adjust. But the friends and family and old friends thing just isn't the way I had pictured it. So I feel a little lonely, and a little bit of a pity party for my myself since everyone gets to go on with their lives while I've put mine through total upheaval. Poo.

Enough of all that, whats been going on...well, my husband got a seasonal job, at See's Candies no less, it will be a magical Christmas filled with yummy sweets...And he took his first test with the Army Guard, he did great and got a high enough score to do what he wants with them (which is military intelligence). He takes his language test on Monday and we're really hoping and praying he does REALLY good on that one, its important. He'll probably swear in on Monday or Tuesday and then we can FINALLY find out when he'll leave for basic training.

I mostly just fantasize. Yes, I can admit that I have a fantasizing problem--it's really not that big of a deal guys! Mostly I fantasize about apartments or houses, basically moving out of my in-laws (I don't want to sound like its horrible here, I just want to live in my own place yo). So I frequent a lot of realty websites, just fantasizing when/if we can ever own our own house...hmmmmm...

Okay you're losing me, I better get going before I slip back into fantasy land! Miss you guys, I'll try and be better--promise!

Pfffffffffffffluuubbeeerrtt

Just wanted to stop in here real quick and say "hey, I'm alive!" I usually post more often than I have been, but seriously I feel off. Or overwhelmed. Or just whatever.

I need to shower. Its almost noon and I'm still in my pajamas and have been eating chocolate pudding. I'm going for some cake next. This is what happens when I get a day off work: Laziness.

My kids have been watching Dora. I hate Dora. The show is so extremely annoying, like I want to gauge my eyes out. I was wondering outloud why Dora's head is so freaking big and my Middle Daughter answered me with "Because she's just Dora." Alright then, makes sense to her.

I'm really going to try hard to think of something super funny. For next time. Look forward to that, I don't know how long its going to take.

Pumpkin cake here I come...oh, and then a shower, yeah.

Nothin'. Blank. There is no thoughts in my head.

I keep starting sentences and erasing them because nothing is sounding right. Poo. I hate that! I'm about to erase this one too...

Instead I think I need a good laugh. The other night we were watching Leno, and he had on there Youtube video's done right vs. the same scenario done bad. Anyway, one was where a kid right at the buzzer threw the basketball all the way down court and made the basket to win the game!!! WOWEE! Here's the other one:



Oh my gosh I could rewind that over and over and over. Thats hysterical.

One Legged Mom

If you knew me personally, or over the course of quite a few years, you would know that I say these words quite often: 'I think I'm dying.'

I know dying isn't a funny thing to joke about, and really I'm not joking because I AM dying. Or I will at some point.

The thing is, I'm not a sickly person, or a super healthy person. I don't get pneumonia or serious virus's hardly...well, ever (totally jinxing myself yes?). What I do get is horrible allergies, ear infections a couple times a year, and since I was a teenager: weird aches and pains.

Like a tight ache in my shoulder/neck area, near my collar bone. Yeah, its just there. Hurting me. And then it goes away, and then it returns. And I think: 'I'm dying aren't I? I must have cancer or something.' Until it goes away and I don't care anymore.

The latest weird pain? All day today I've had these tingles and itches and numbness running up and down my legs. It started out while I was at work, I was putting some stuff away in a closet and it felt like I'd walked through a spider web, and I jumped and started rubbing my leg. But nothing was there...just itchiness. It's gone on like that all day today. Until now, where my left leg is totally numb and has been that way for the last hour or so.

And here I am again, thinking 'I'm dying aren't I? Or I'm going to lose a leg. Yay.'

Besides the fact that I've changed so many flippin' diapers again today, I wouldn't mind taking a little extended "vacation" in a clinic somewhere to have my "illness" checked out. Be it psychiatric or whatnot.