Thursday, August 9, 2012

Finding Balance

I know last post I wrote, I said I wasn't going to read comments anymore and then I just went and did the exact opposite. I'm a bad person.

I keep telling myself that I'm easing out of this slowly, that I'm not a cold turkey kind of person. But the thing is: I sort of AM a cold turkey kind of person.

Whenever I've struggled with something in the past, let's say a tv show for example (something easy), I'll just not allow myself to watch that show at all anymore, I will even try to stay away from that whole tv channel if it helps. I can't just watch every once in awhile or take a break and come back to it, I have to STOP and never watch it ever again.

I think I've explained this before, but I have a sort of obsessive personality. When I do something--anything really--I am super focused on it for until...I don't know, I can obsess over something else. It makes life difficult sometimes.

But this is my problem: I don't want to quit my computer time cold turkey. I want to learn how to moderate my time on it, I want to be able to see its been long enough and to go do something else already! How do I learn this? I don't know, but I'm trying. And by trying, I mean, I really suck at this. But I AM trying, even if to others it doesn't look like a very good effort. (Tell that to my husband, please.) ;)

I'm also really hoping for a big change to happen in our lives very soon and maybe that will be like a kickstart for changing my schedule, plus school will start soon; all that HAS to help right?? Kind of like when you do a detox or whatever to kickstart losing weight. I don't know what that means, but it relates  I think.

Okay then, my computer time is over... (see progress!)


  1. Well, I have missed your blogs actually. It is hard to find Balance in life. Heck girl, I am almost 61 and still trying to figure that out.
    Don't be too hard on yourself......
    You are aware of WHAT YOU WANT to do
    and you'll find the balance that fits your life.

  2. I seriously understand this and I have no answers for you. I'm a cold turkey person too, only I'm trying hard to control myself for moderation. So good luck to you & if you stumble onto anything that works would you let me know because I'm in the same place. :)

  3. The only thing I will offer is that rather than an allotment of time I actually have a schedule. So, for example, instead of saying I will give myself an hour on the computer today, I say that I will be on the computer from 9-10 am. Just a thought. We ALL struggle with this issue. Don't feel alone here. It is one of the struggles of our time because of the easy access.


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