Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Make It Stop

I am a somewhat obsessive person. Or I have an addictive personality. Its like if there's something I like its ALL or nothing. If I have a new friend that I love I want to see them ALL the time. If there's an Italian Soda I like, I drink one every day. Until I realize I can't do that anymore.
Take blogging, I look at blogs ALL the time. I may not blog as often anymore but thats because my life sucks and is boring.

So anyway, the point is that I am wrapped up inside my own head ALL the time. I am constantly thinking about and obsessing over EVERY little thing. I can't turn my brain off for the life of me (or would that be the life of me if I did?) and sometimes it gets old. Sometimes I would like to just not care about every little thing. I would love to just stop thinking for five minutes. I'm telling you my mind is thinking about something and how I feel about it like every second of the day. I worry about my kids, I think about issues I'm having, could my baby be any cuter, what that person is wearing, how I shouldn't have yelled at my kids just then (yes, just now), what groceries do I need, why is this sweater so itchy, is my daughter okay at school without me, how I need to stop wasting so much time but really why since I have NOTHING TO DO ANYWAY, why is that person so annoying, why am I so annoying?!?!

It just never ends, and if it bothers me so much, it has to bug other people right? My constant analyzing and talking and sharing how I feel. It gets old right?

But you guys, I don't know how to stop! How do you stop your brain from thinking? How do you change the way you react to things when you've been reacting that way for like ever? I really honestly try so hard to let things go, not worry what other people are doing because who cares, and just be happy; but eventually I fall back into obsessing about everything.

Do you think they medicate for this sort of thing? Don't worry, I'll just be obsessing over here while I wait for your answers. :)

12 comments:

  1. Oh my gosh! Every time I read something you write - I'm thinking - crap! How does she know me???? Dang I wish we lived in the same state or something... I would love to visit with you face to face!
    By the way... you are totally normal as far as I can tell. I do the SAME thing! ALL the dang time! I think that's why blogging is such a good outlet! That's where I let it ALL out! :)

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  2. Please don't quote me, but some of this sounds like Generalized Anxiety. I don't have GAD, but I do have more phobic anxiety. It something that can be treated with medication and counseling.

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  3. Yes, they do have meds for that. You might need them or you might not. However, there are other coping strategies, the ones I use. Reading, watching TV (ALL THE TIME) and eating. But really, if you feel like it interferes with your ability to function, that's when you know that the chemicals in your brain has decided this is normal and will just keep it up. And then it gets worse. Meds really are wonderful when they are properly prescribed. And it doesn't mean anything is wrong with you. Either way, we love you just the way you are!

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  4. They totally have meds for that. I know.

    Also I tried meditating and my brain wouldn't do it (shut up and empty and all that) so I began reciting things in my head. (If you do temple stuff, I find certain little portions very memorizable.) Most of the time it stops the constant chatter. Perhaps it'll help. Perhaps not. Mostly though I am just a fan of medication.

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  5. Try yoga. It always clears my head and helps me to physically work out all of my issues... of course, then you'll probably become addicted to it and be right back where you started.

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  6. I am like that, too. My husband gets so annoyed with me sometimes, because he'll be trying to be sweet and mushy then he'll ask me what I'm thinking about, and I'm like, "If I sew 5 buttons on that little quilt per day, it will still take me 7 days to get all those stinkin' buttons sewn on!" Poor guy.

    I've never even thought about medicating. I just thought that was how I was. I would like something to help me sleep at night, sometimes though. I can lay in bed thinking and thinking forever. It takes me at least half and hour to fall asleep almost every night. (Unless I've had a -really- rough day!)

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  7. You must harness your powers and use them for good, oh obsessive one...aahhhmmmmm...(insert more sound advice here)

    PS-HAPPY ANNIVERSARY;)

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  8. They have meds for everything.

    And in the all or nothing way -I am so your twin. For example, I'm on a The Office kick. I watch about 5 episodes a day. It's bad. And I won't stop until I've watched all of 'em.

    Mastering your mind with the other stuff takes a lot of practice. I've made a lot of progress, but I'm still working on it. Good luck!

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  9. All your obsessing is charming to me, and it makes you quirky, and thats how I fell in love with you. So like it or not, it's part of you.

    Now go take your pill... :-D

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  10. Quite honestly, I do not have answers to your questions. However, I will say that I find your posts the most interesting and funny - even if they are about nothing. I especially like trying to figure out your bizarre dreams. Never stop blogging.

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  11. OK---you are such a weird-0. HA HA HA HA
    Not really. We all have our weird ways, phobias, worries, obsessions. It's just the way it is.
    I tend to be a worry wart too.....I worry about EVERYTHING. It gets to be draining, so I hear ya on that one.
    Just. Be. You.

    Thanks for your kind words of love and support regarding my son. The outpouring of love on our behalf has been a blessing .

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  12. I have 2 words for you:
    Running.
    Yoga.

    No wait. Three words:
    Running.
    Yoga.
    Therapy.

    Works for me. And based on what you wrote here, we are VERY MUCH alike.

    (Missed you!)

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