So its been a week, one week since my husband left. And in that week I've been on a roller coaster of emotions, feeling fine to complete breakdowns. Blue's to red's. Its been a ride.
But I've gotten one overwhelming notion throughout this last week: I'm a teenage girl again.
I am obsessed with a boy. I feel the same as when I had my first boyfriend, where I couldn't get enough of him, where I would wait for his phone call and feel moody and sad when he didn't. And then elated and giggly when he did.
That is how I've felt this last week.
Seriously, its bad. I went to the grocery store, with two of my kids and my big belly looming ahead of me, you'd think that would snap me out of it, but no. I'm going down an aisle and what do I see? A bag of sunflower seeds. And the brand? "David." (Thats my husband's name if you didn't know.) And my heart fluttered and I felt sad and I missed him and I wanted to cry. Over SUNFLOWER SEEDS.
Do you remember the silly roller coaster ride of a crush? I'm right there baby. Right there. Hopefully it will pass soon and I'll be an adult again.